So I misnamed this blog. I didn't realize it until now. So I can either start again, Or keep it as is. Unless of course anyone knows a way to change blog titles. Because you know, I am so lost when it comes to the whole, blogging things...thing. Also, with life I have no idea what I'm doing. Well, I shouldn't say with life, I know what I want, I just have no idea how to get it, balance working a job that pays me regularly, spending time with the boyfriend, friends and family. I love acting. Ever since I was a little girl, I wanted to be an entertainer. A singer, doing musical theatre, television, being an action hero, I even spent time wanting to be the villain. I still do, being the bad guy can be a lot of fun. But of course, the entertainment business is all about who you know. I my best and only connections are PAs whom I don't want to get fired by asking them to push their desperate friend's headshot and resume all over Hollywood. Or what passes for Hollywood here where I live.
And the worst road block that I have run into is my adoring boyfriend, who fears that all of my acting pursuits will dive a wedge between us, because it will keep up from spending time together. which yes it will. But he knew I was an artist when we started dating. The fact that I am seriously starting to focus on my dream career should not be a surprise to him, but every time I mention an audition he gets edgy. His first thought is always well what about us? When am I going to see you? How much time is this going to take up? I'm starting to wonder if I should even tell him about them at all. And these are just auditions. I haven't even been cast yet. I mentioned thinking about taking a dance class and he added that into the equation of a possible show I was wanting to be in and it turned into this whole big thing.
Why? Because he got all butt hurt about how much time ti would take up without even bothering to ask how much time it would take up. He didn't ask questions he just jumped to conclusions. We spent almost three weeks having painfully long discussions about the things that were bothering him. From his point of view everything was my fault, from my point of view everything was his fault and end the nothing got resolved. Because I'm not going to not audition for shows or looking for an agent or any other ridiculous thing that could possibly make me miserable because he doesn't see how I can still so all that and spend time with him. I don't either, but I plan on making it happen. And I know anyone reading this would just say drop him and do what I want, but when you love someone you make things work no matter how crazy they can get.
That's all I've got for now.
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